Ashley Cain posted an emotional message to his Instagram Stories on Monday evening as he visited the grave of his daughter.
The actuality TV star and his companion Safiyya Vorajee have been making each day visits to child Azaylia’s resting place since her funeral on May 21.
And in a heartbreaking message in darkness on Monday evening, 30-year-old Ashley admitted he may have to “live haunted by the fact my daughter passed away in my arms counting her last breaths”.
Earlier in the day he had described how there “isn’t a day that you don’t feel sad or pain” and stated you get “constantly haunted by what’s happened”.
Then as the evening descended, he described his “life now as a devoted dad to the most beautiful baby a father could wish for” and panned the digicam round to the eight-month-old’s superbly adorned memorial grave.
Talking to the digicam, Ashley fought again the tears and stated: “When everything in my life felt bad I used to see her face. It made everything better. Now I can never do that again.”
He continued to say he’ll have to reside with that for the remainder of his life and stated how he will proceed to go to her grave and speak to her for hours on finish.
He defined that, whereas he missed her, what hurts him the most is that her life was stuffed with ache with wires in her chest and nostril and was a life spent in a hospital room.
“Even though she didn’t show, I know she was going through pain,” he tearfully stated. “I’ve got to live haunted by the fact that my daughter passed away in my arms counting her breaths.
“I really feel for that little woman a lot.”
Ashley then shared a poignant message alongside a picture of the grave which learn: “Goodnight God bless to my daughter, my hero and the strongest, most beautiful person I know. You will live in my heart, my soul and my spirit forever!”
Just a few hours later he returned to his story to be certain that individuals knew he was okay.
He added: “I want everyone to know they don’t need to worry about me. My daughter fought so hard for her life that I would never ever give mine up.”
He courageously stated he was devoted to establishing a charity that may assist different households get by way of powerful occasions.
“If I can make a little bit of a difference that’s what I want to do,” he continued. “I will go to the lengths of every corner of the Earth to do that and to honour my daughter’s name.”
He requested that his followers proceed to assist him when the charity is ready up and instructed them he will “keep on going” till he has “done all I can do”.
He thanked supporters who had been encouraging him in the avenue and signed off by saying “God bless you”.
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